Welcome Back

I have done this before. 

I have fought through these feelings, jumped this hurtle, lost this weight, gotten out of the quicksand just in the nick of time. 

This will not be the first time; I have will re-teach myself things like pain, righteous anger, misplaced hate and most of all fear. 

Sound a bit dramatic?  It is.

That is not to say it is not momentarily true.

I am back to where I did not want to be, fighting again to reach goals set in place so long ago.

After almost a year of what I would call blood pumping, muscle tearing and fat shredding I made the same mistake…  I got happy.  I allowed myself to begin to justify actions I previously would not accept.  The voices were back  ..”you earned this (enter great tasting yet massively caloric heart stopping food item(s) here)…”  or the infamous “you can afford to skip today’s sacrifice to the temple of sweat, blood and tears.”

I am cutting the bloodletting short this time, not waiting until all 80 of the lbs of I have lost jump on me like I would an all you can eat burrito contest.

So back to the gym, warehouse, concrete, wood and any and other surface or space I can find to hurt myself on.

Back to the tabata, HIIT and all out iron destruction

Back to the chicken from the can, salads and tuna cans

Back to happy

Back to growth

Back to getting it done

And finally back to being the me I have to, need to and want to be!